Perfectly Imperfect quotes

originally written 8/30/2010

I read another book written by Lee Woodruff, "Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress" - she is an amazing story teller and I will be utilizing many quotes directly from her book to make a few points of my own.  These are the topics that struck a chord with me:


FEAR


"When you are driving, you have to have a certain amount of trust and faith: trust that you'll get there safely, faith that the other crazy knuckleheads on the road will stay out of your way. When someone else is driving, you have to give up control. You have to believe that the driver will deliver you in one piece, use the necessary reflexes, make the right decisions, and stay on the road." Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff

I am still a nervous passenger, I find that my eyes are a little more sensitive to light so it is vital that I keep a pair of good sunglasses with me always. When I first came home from the hospital I would catch myself closing my eyes every time I would start to feel scared in the car, I am happy to say that I have trained myself not to shut my eyes every time I feel the panic setting in. If I want to drive again someday I need to get a grip on my emotions in the car. Yes, I was in a horrible accident but I survived so this is me screaming at the universe "bring it on", I will drive again and I will have a more fulfilling life than I have now.

EXTRAS

' "Treat the waiter the same as the CEO", my dad had told me once, "and you'll probably find something to like about everybody." I had tried to use his approach as a template for living. ' Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff


I love this quote! There is nothing I find more offensive that a person who treats their waiter or waitress with disdain. There is also no excuse for shorting someone on their tip, I will argue this until I am blue in the face. I do not care who you are, what you do or what you say; you will never convince me of your justification for mistreating restaurant staff. Tell me that you have worked in a restaurant and then we can have a conversation, otherwise I hope you believe me when I tell you that you simply cannot understand what it is like. What does this have to do with recovering from a traumatic brain injury? Absolutely nothing. This quote simply gave me a forum to rant about something I feel that I have extraordinary knowledge about.


CAREGIVERS

"After every full-blown crisis comes the moment when the adrenaline retreats and the shoulders sag." Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff
"For so long, I had been in "go" mode, always moving forward, making decisions." Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff


"How does any caregiver really make time for herself in the midst of a cyclone?" Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff

"I was in emotional pain, as one doctor would explain to me months later. And emotional pain is just as real and uncomfortable as the physical kind." Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff

"In my life, what the miracle of Bob's recovery did more than anything was widen the aperture inside me to witness the presence of small everyday blessings. The big moments are easy to spot. But the real challenge, the art form, is to find gratitude in much simpler things." Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff

 "Grief is not a competition. Sorrow is sorrow and fear is fear and loss is loss and we humans are all traveling on the same bandwidth in life." Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff

One of the reasons I fell in love with this book is because it allows me to get a glimpse of what my parents have been dealing with since my accident, August 1, 2009. Lee Woodruff writes from a caregivers point of view and she helps me see that while this journey of recovery sucks; it doesn't just suck for me. My family has turned their world upside down to make accommodations for me, they allowed me to move home, they take me to see all of my different Doctors. They helped me find a gym and a trainer that works well with me, and they don't seem to mind taking me to and from the gym several times a week. When you hear me say that I feel blessed they are very much the reason.

LIFE LESSONS
"When bad things happen, we all dream of rewinding the tape. But we can't, and so we do the only thing we can: we take those bad things and turn them into situations we can learn from. It's human nature to pan for gold, to find a positive slant in something so negative, because anything less would feel like defeat." Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff

I am left feeling dumbfounded when people say "you are handling everything so well", really I am not handling it well. Believe it or not I do have a filter and it prevents me from saying the mundane inappropriate things that pop into my head ALL the time. I believe that we are expected to learn throughout our entire lives, I believe that I am learning to truly appreciate the gifts that have been in front of me all along. I believe that I would not have been able to progress this far if I did not have the help of the brilliant medical minds that have been looking after me since day-1 of this trauma. I believe that there was a point in the not-too-distant past where I would have just given up and though that this is as far as my recovery will go; yet here I am believing that things will continue to improve if I just keep working at it.

DON'T HANG BACK - MAKE CONTACT
"But it is crucial not to hang back: the bravest and most wonderful thing you can do is to be there for someone else, even if this takes you completely out of your comfort zone. When something goes wrong in a friend's life, it is essential to acknowledge what is happening. Don't give up on them if they try at first to push you away, but take your cue from them, do come back - they will need you later on." Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff

I haven't had anyone give up on me, which is such a blessing. I have had a few disappointments: when i expected something to go one way and it went another way but, such is life. I have been very pleasantly surprised with a few people who I thought were lost to me but this accident has opened up doors and those people are now friends, once again.


HELP THEM FEEL NORMAL


"Sometimes when a person's life has changed so much, they want to hear what normal sounds like; they want you to treat them as if their world is just like it used to be." Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff

I dream of the day where things are "normal" again, things may be a little different but I believe they will "normalize" at some point. Ultimately my likes are still my likes, my dislikes are still the things I would prefer to go without. I like to try new restaurants, I adore spending time with my friends, I like to read, I love to cook, I dream of traveling to Italy. I still hate math, I still cannot play the piano, I still have the urge to act like a complete lunatic to solicitors that come to the front door.

RECOGNIZE THE POWER OF THE HUMAN TOUCH


"When you are visiting the person going through a difficult time, treat him or her like a human being - not a patient. Don't be afraid to make physical contact. Most illnesses and injuries are not contagious. Touches and hugs are one of the most healing things one person can do for another." Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff


ESTABLISH A HEALTHY INFORMATION EXCHANGE
"In moments of crisis, everyone wants information, and many people deserve to get it from the source, since lines of communication can be confusing and not knowing can be terrifying. Luckily, the Internet has made it much, much easier to disseminate information and update family and friends." Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff

"When you're visiting someone going through a difficult time, don't ask questions that make them recount the whole ordeal, the facts and statistics, or the road ahead. They may not want to talk about the issue at all. Resist the urge to share your own stories about similar illness or diseases and other people you know. Many people think that comparisons are comforting or hopeful, but these stories can actually be terrifying or even insulting." Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff

"Ultimately, the best thing you can do is simply listen to the other person you wish to comfort. Be sure to let them know you are there whenever they need to talk, anytime. You don't always have to have a solution or good advice; sometimes people just need to unburden themselves, or simply say things out loud." Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff

Thanks to Facebook and Blogspot my story is out there and it is possible to learn everything without having to sit through me trying to tell you everything.


AVOID OVER MOTHERING


"Certain physiological things happen as a result of stress or grief. The caregiver, as well as the patient; is damaged, in crisis and sometimes things inside their brains don't work the way they normally would. Do not repeatedly tell the caregiver to eat or sleep. They cannot." Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff
I have a beautiful, fabulous, wonderful mother but I am a 36 year old woman and I am living at home again, dependant upon my parents to drive me everywhere. Ask me if you are uncertain about anything, otherwise trust that I will do my best to stay out of harms way.


BE SENSITIVE TO WHAT THEY NEED TO HEAR


" Don't be afraid to acknowledge the other person's pain. It's okay to say "This stinks, but I'm here every step of the way." " Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff


"You play the cards you're dealt.. It's possible that the best approach really is to never stop trying to get your hands on the deck and start dealing them yourself." Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff

CHOOSE YOUR WORDS AND ACTIONS WISELY

"Resist the urge to repeatedly tell the person , "You are so strong." They don't always feel strong, and they don't want to have to act strong in front of you or hold back tears so as not to disappoint your expectations or impressions of them." Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff

"I understood that the woman thought she was being helpful or thoughtful, but I needed to be approached gently and wanted desperately to be treated like a "normal" person, the person I used to be." Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff

UNDERSTAND WHERE FAITH BELONGS

"But faith, especially, means different things to different people. And in the midst of a crisis, people often experience a wide range of emotions." Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff

 "keep in mind that while spiritual comfort can be helpful to some, it may come off as irritating or overly personal for others." Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff


This is a very difficult topic, I do not want to offend anyone and I want you to turn to what makes you comfortable but faith and religion are not the answer for everyone, just something to keep in mind.  I am aware that there was some sort of higher power that stepped in to help me - otherwise I would not be here to tell you my tale.


BE THERE FOR THE LONG HAUL

"In the first days and weeks of a crisis, people come out of the woodwork, flooding you with offers to help, with food and flowers and kind encouragement. This is wonderful, but it can also be overwhelming. The real work begins when all the neighbors have gone back to their own lives, and the patient and family still need occasional support." Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff

"We are all unexpected experts at surviving. We're no different than so many American families: we've acquired scars, opened our eyes, we've grown and stretched, we've ached and rejoiced. We've felt loss keenly, and we've counted our many blessings. None of us will ever underestimate the power of love, family, and the resilience of the human spirit. Through it all, we've been grateful to have kept our sense of humor and our general optimism intact. We may be messy at the edges some days, but we are a family firmly united at our core. In the end, we are proud to be perfectly imperfect." Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff


FRIENDSHIP

"Now she is a girlfriend of extremes, one with whom I have experienced the unbearable weight and the joyful lightness of being.  That kind of friendship is a priceless commodity; it exists in its own safety zone.  And while it carries with it responsibility, it is also one of the greatest privileges I know."   Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff

I am so lucky to have found a fabulous group of people who are such dear friends to me.  So many people have been amazing sounding boards and pillars of support throughout this journey.  I thank you all from the bottom of my heart and look forward to creating new memories soon.

"until you have unintentionally tested a friendship by enduring a crisis together" - Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff

"Many times now we can finish each other's sentences, the way I do with my sisters.  We've touched black and burned places in each other's souls, those spots we keep covered and bandaged away from others in our lives."  Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff

Lauren has been that kind of friend for me, we have gotten along so well since the beginning of our friendship -  back when we were slinging in beers in a hell-hole of a German restaurant in Las Vegas.  We had so much fun together that we often were given waitress stations at opposite ends of a one thousand seat restaurant...yet still we would figure out a way to communicate and get ourselves into trouble.  Now Lauren has a fabulous job and is living in Hawaii yet we have been very lucky that she has been able to get to San Diego many times for a quick visit, always to be certain that I am doing OK.  I am getting better and hopefully soon I can go to Hawaii to visit Lauren for awhile, I am so looking forward to going to our favorite beach and possibly hitting up the Slurpee machine at 7-11...There have been so many people that have stepped in along the way and I want you to know that I am so grateful for your friendship and support along the way.  If I failed to mention you directly over the course of this blog I apologize, I hope at some other place in this blog I thought to mention you directly, if I did not than shame on me and please know that I am not blaming my brain injury for my forgetfulness...


"All of us had holes inside, I had come to understand, charred places that never really healed over completely.  It wasn't possible to go through life without bruises and battle scars, and perhaps that wasn't the point anyway."  Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff


"life moves ever forward, even when we feel incapable of picking up our feet.  People adjust, families heal, wounds scar over, although we may never forget."Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff

There are days when I feel like I cannot do anything more, there are times when I scream on the inside and wonder why I am facing this recovery.  Then directly after those moments of weakness and doubt I remember that I am blessed to have family and friends by my side, I am not going through any of this battle alone.  Yes, I get lonely and yes, I am constantly waiting for something else to come along and throw another curve ball my way but if what they say is true and that which doesn't kill us makes us stronger than I feel like I am going to be able to handle anything.

"I hadn't really understood the overarching capacity people have to adapt, to be patient, and to recover.  I hadn't factored in the resilience of the human spirit, the very healing powers of time passing, the grace and perspective we find in moments of repose, and the ability of the soul to regenerate."  Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff

"I count my blessings for having sisters and girlfriends with whom I can unburden and be as comfortable with as a second skin." Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff

Final note from Lee Woodruff:

"Finally, my utter admiration goes out to the survivors of brain injuries and their families, both civilian and military.  Thank you all for sharing your personal stories with me over the past two years on the road.  Your journeys, struggles, and triumphs have made my own life brighter.  I pray that no one else will have to walk in our shoes."  Perfectly Imperfect, A life in progress written by Lee Woodruff.

It is also my hope that no one else has to go through the uncertainty of recovering from a brain injury, unfortunately I think brain injury is here to stay.  Luckily the research is continuing to move forward, now I hope for more resources and more dedication to the study of brain injury and its recovery process. I also find myself wishing for medical insurance companies to be more forward thinking, believe in the recovery process and understand that although you may have to pay more up front you will not be required to pay for such long term care.  Allow people the best chance for recovery, they may amaze you with what they can do with that chance.